Longview - Falling For You

Today me and Cameron had an argument. A bad argument. A really big argument. A really big bad argument.He'd been annoying me all day - and hit me over the head with a maraca this morning. Which HURT. But anyway whenever i saw him it made me want to kick him, and when I went to speak to him in the hall he just looked at me and walked off.

Then, after lunch, we were in the form room, and cameron walked in. He said 'HI BECCI' really sarcastically, and i said 'fuck off Cameron.' He said 'FINE!' and walked out.
Later on he came back in, and Louis came up to me and said 'Cameron said that he thinks youre on your period and are really stressed out'. I looked at cameron and said 'I am NOT on my period!'. He glared at louis and screamed 'LOUIS YOU BLOODY BITCH!'. I yelled back 'dont you DARE take this out on him'. He then said 'oh yeah im on my period.' and I just snapped.
'STOP TRYING TO BE SO FUCKING FUNNY!'
He got REALLY mad then. He yelled 'I AM NOT TRYING TO BE FUCKING FUNNY' and threw his blazer at me. I stood up, and we were face to face with the whole class around us, silent. We screamed insults at eachother, using the word 'fuck' more than necissary. Unfortunately a teacher outside heard this, and came in. She saw Cameron glaring at me and told him to get out and calm down. Our form tutor came in, furious (having spoken to Cameron outside), snapped the register, and told me to stay behind after. So i did. Cameron came in, his face red from crying. I just watched him and my eyes went blurry and I shook. She tried to find out what happened but we were saying nothing. Me and him stormed out of the classroom, and I got downstairs, saw Hollie and just burst into tears. All i could say was 'I made him cry.'
I got hugged by about 8 people, and then the cleaner asked if i was ok and told me 'he's not worth it, darlin'. I don't do this - I don't make people cry. Fuck I'm so sorry.

The Verve - Love Is Noise

Today went by without anything amazing happening. But did my detention after school, with Karina (female bestie) and Emma. We just sat there telling the teacher jokes and ignoring him, which is always fun.
Geography was my first lesson. Finished the work quickly, spent most of it talking to Hollie about the boy we lurrrrrv (a new fit sixth former called Alan). I've never been so obsessed over someone i barely know - he's gorgeous :)
English came next - we're working on 'an inspector calls' and most of our lessons are drama, so while we were in our small group practising a drama, we spent 15 minutes talking to Jonny while he was dangling from a stairwell. It was FUNNY.
Science was before lunch - physics. The first thing I said to Stimpy when I got into class was 'You've had a haircut'. He congratulated me on being the only one who had noticed, bless.
P.E was JOKES. I honestly can barely hit a shot, but managed to hit a couple while playing mixed doubles with Ant against Stefan and Polina. My 'mating dance' went down a treat.
They were filming for Guardian Angels when Me and Karina left detention. So we had to quickly run accross the bridgeway before we got in the way of a car chase through the car park. I can't wait for GA this year.
Development day tomorrow or something. All i know is that we're not allowed to bring in food - and they've even got people who are going to stand guard in the canteen so no year 10's go in. Ha. This should be interesting...

Travis - Flowers In The Window

Fact for today: Becci cannot play babminton.
& has an AMAZING mating dance.

The IT crowd

I really like him & i shouldn't cause he's a twat.

RHCP - Dani Calafornia

Basically, today my mate got suspended for strangling a guy in our year until he passed out. Apart from that everything was goooood. Was a bit of a hyperactive giggly thing in art today - i tend to entertain people in that state. Chloe & Bethan were finding me hilarious, ha. Was with Cameron alot again in form & he joined us at lunch. He really likes touching me (in the non pervy way). I.e we hug alot.
Nothing else really happened - apart from having long chats about our christmas presents and plans for Shannon's (a bestie) birthday thing. OH and my aunties and uncles are basically making me remove some less-than-fully-clothed pictures of me from facebook, as they're too provocative and bad influences on my copycat; Emily. Sucks.

Eminem: Toy Soldiers

It's 8:10pm, and i have just come back from having dropped John off at his house :)
He was here for about 3 hours - playing guitar and writing songs with my brother. First time we'd talked properly. He's such a cool person - and is nineteen on friday :O. Rather gorgeous if i say so myself, ha.
Steak for dinner soon - YUM. Then school tomorrow. Tomorrow is a good day - subjects i enjoy. Geography, Business, Maths (grr) English & Art.

All Time Low - Running From Lions (acoustic)

I woke up this morning at a cheery time of 11:55. Even now (an hour later) I'm still not fully awake - i had such deep + clear dreams that I'm still in the dream state. I had three dreams as far as i remember, which made me wake up feeling very strange. I feel like my brain is really huge but empty :S. Today I'm too tired to do anything. I might pop round Camerons later on my usual long walk round my village. I LOVE long walks. Luckily my area is farely middle class and we know pretty much everyone. It's a beautiful town as well, with lots of woods and rivers, which makes walking around listening to music absolute heaven. I've also got a new-found liking for standing on the bridge over the motorway (15 minute walk) at night. Watching all the cars go past is strangely relaxing and I tend to go there most days. Longview: Further is playing. This is such an incredible song; it's one of those songs that make you fall in love with it every time you hear it. I love it, I love it, I love it!
P.s thanks to Sam for introducing me to this blog :)

Regina Spektor - Fidelity

I love weekends.
Every Saturday my cousins find it their obligation to intrude on us. Christopher is 6 - a right little shit when he wants to be, but generally gorgeous. Emily is 11. Just started year 7 and texts me almost every day about how school has been, and weird facts she's discovered. She's pretty shy around everyone but me, and is smart for her age. We get along well and her admiration of me is so sweet. We watch DVDs pretty much every week. Today it was 'The Secret Garden' and some weird documentaries on 4od.

I'm loving how closely-knit our year is at the moment. Also, everyone is getting so much less judgemental. Some of our year are on the verge of losing their virginity, and are not branded sluts or man-whores any more. Of course the majority of us are not thinking about that at the moment - but it's nice to know that everyone has finally matured. I'm lucky with my school. Not only in the beauty of the place, I don't think i have an enemy in the whole school, and I've got good friends in all years. As for the work... :P

My best friend Cameron came round yesterday with his gorgeous German Shephard puppy, Syler. I only meant to see Syler then tell him to bugger off but we ended up talking on my doorstep for about half an hour. Cameron is one of my most favourite people in the world. I've known him since i was four, and he lives a 5 minute walk from me. He's really affectionate, and extremely confident. He's one of the few people that has proper chats with my parents without getting embarassed AT ALL - hence my mom's love for him. He's been mistaken as my boyfriend countless times, as we are usually attatched in one way, shape or form. Even though we annoy the shit out of eachother, we have an unspoken closeness which is unmissable. I owe him so much :D

Intro

I really don't know how to start this, but I suppose I'll just wing it, which im best at :) I'm Becci/Becky/Bex/BB - I've been called everything. I'm fourteen & I live in England. I have an older brother & two cats.
I hate doing things the typical way, so i'm not going to do the usual 'here's every detail of my life' introduction technique. I'll just list the slightly more interesting bits.
1) I'm right handed but i eat with my left hand
2) I'm pretty blunt
3) I'm an optomist
4) I hate chocolate flavoured stuff but LOVE chocolate
5) I'm easily bored but uncomfortable with change
6) I've been called 'a walking cliché'
7) I love [stylish] floral patterns
8) I can't stand selfishness
9) I don't think about things too much
10) I dont care about being noticed or other people's opinions of me
11) I can't stand people who judge
12) I'm a loving person - never doubt my affection if you're nice to me.
13) I hate overly soppy things.
14) I love the '&' and '+' signs.
15) I hate obviousness. I like to be original.
16) I prefer hidden beauty to obvious
17) I get along better with guys than girls
18) I notice things that others don't.
19) I love the rain. But not what it does to my hair :/
20) I'm good at empathy
21) I prefer the truth to politeness. Tell me if i look like an idiot.
22) I love cute nicknames
23) I'm easy to get along with
24) People who change around others tend to annoy me.
25) I like people that use proper grammar but i'm not uptight about it, so dont worry.
26) I'm easily amused
27) I love music. I know the lyrics to pretty much every song i own, and i'm known for it :D

Tbh i don't expect anyone to read this - as I've only given the link to one person, and that is how it will stay. This blog is for me and no-one else. I'm not going to lie to make myself more interesting or cooler. It's the truth - my thoughts, my feelings, my opinions.